You want to know why?

After I did what I had to do, I had my blinkers on firmly. With the decision came waves of nostalgia and very highly tinted rosy shades. For a while, I focused only on the little bit of fondness I still had left for you, letting it magnify because, hey, I won't have to deal with the shitty bits anymore!

A little while ago, I believe it was last week, the blinkers wobbled and fell off. And today, two useless conversations with the redundant fool later, I am pissed off.

Stop expecting gratefulness. As I've bee recently told, we don't work for love. So we should not allow anyone to cheat us of our money. And don't claim you haven't cos you have and we all remember vividly how. Your expectations of people falling at your feet to kiss your toes and cry hail the lord to thank you have led to the accumulation of a bunch of incompetent sycophants by your side. Only one kind of person puts himself on a false pedestal and demands respect and his name is either Tyrant or Fool. Very often both.

Stop elevating yourself by putting down others to put yourself in a better light. You always pick the bullies and the fools and the insecure and the unkind to use as examples of how good you are. It doesn't work that way. Being better than the scum of the earth does not make you good. It just makes you better than that particular scum. And there are many levels of scum. We all need aspirational heroes so we may be better persons. Find one. I am leaving to find mine.

Be just and do not encourage politics. It is NOT lonely at the top. It is only lonely at the bottom. Where hopeless individuals, who claim that it's lonely at the top, dwell.

Be good at your craft but maintain sincerity. It is important not to lose yourself as a person. You lose who you are, you lose human decency, you lose everyone and everything.

Be transparent and open. If you have good news or grand plans, share but do not promise what you cannot deliver. Being non-confrontational and leaving the dirty work to middle men is most despicable.

Do not take people for granted and just add on to their burdens as and when you please. You are not god.

Water IS a fucking necessity.

I think I've said too much. And now I'll say why I can't tell you all the above.

Because you cannot take truths. To be honest with you only results in the following outcomes:
- lambasted for ungratefulness
- portrayed to everyone you speak to as the ungrateful villain who has wounded you, the eternal victim
- attacked in turn with everything you've been unhappy about all this time

Now I wouldn't mind so much if you had been open with your dissatisfaction each time it occurred. But no, you withhold everything and and allow it all to become your personal vendetta. At this point, I wouldn't want to hear anything because it would only be vindictive and non-constructive.

I have learned a lot from you. Unfortunately, it's not what you think. I have learned not to be petty, not to be a frog in the well and not to boast. I will constantly remind myself to be less arrogant, to remain grounded, to always want to improve instead of relying on past glories, to be fair, to be just, to reward and reprimand appropriately and to respect and be worth respecting.

I have learned to never be like you.

So here's one last thing. Stop repeating to everyone how opportunity and rewards have been bestowed upon me. You may have been responsible for where I was in the beginning and you may have somewhat contributed to what I now know in the beginning stage. But honestly, I think I've contributed more to you than you may have given me. After all, you're hardly a firm believer in just rewards, are you? (No, do not be deluded, please.) We have been self-functioning for a very long time and if you stop for moment to listen to your recent vocal absurdities, you'll know why we treat you like the emperor parading in new clothes.