Last day of the year

No resolutions this time. Tried it once last year. Don't think I enjoy the process of coining up a list, forgetting about it, and then ending up being a wee bit disappointed when I recall the things undone. So for 2010, I'll just wing it.

Happy New Year.

「不過你應該有一位喜歡的男人對嗎？」

「是的。不過我和那個人在現實中結合的可能性，無限接近零。因此就算我在這裡死掉了，因而失去的，也只有無限接近零而已。」

老婦人瞇細了眼睛。「你認為自己可能不會跟那個男人結合，有什麼具體理由嗎？」

「並沒有特別理由。」青豆說。「除了我是我以外。」

「你不打算對他，做什麼努力嗎？」

青豆搖頭。「對我來說最重要的是，自己在心裡深深地需要他這個事實。」

老婦人很佩服似的暫時注視著青豆的臉。「你這個人想法非常乾脆。」

「因為有這個必。」青豆說。然後把雪莉酒杯拿到嘴邊。「不是因為喜歡而這樣做的。」

--《1Q84》Book 2／村上春樹

Ayumi內心抱著巨大的缺陷。那是像地球盡頭的沙漠般的地方。不管注入多少水，都會從注入的旁邊被吸進地底去。事後沒留下一點濕氣。任何生命都無法在那裡生根。連鳥都不會從那上空飛過。是什麼在她身上形成那樣荒涼的東西呢？只有Ayumi才知道。不，其實連Ayumi自己可能都不知道。

--《1Q84》Book 2/ 村上春樹

Am I the only one who hates bra shopping?

1. Why are bras so exorbitantly expensive?
2. Why is it so hard to find unpadded bras?
3. Why is it so hard to find decent plain seamless black unpadded bras (yes, thick lining is also padding can)?
4. Why does M&S sell pairs in black-white or beige-white combinations? To prevent lots of white leftovers? So why manufacture white ones?
5. Why the fuck does this phone keep auto-upcasing the word 'white'?

Look up. All the way up.

I like to tilt my head back to see what's out there. Feel the strain in the neck, arch in the back and the sway of my ridiculously, need-to-be-lopped-off long hair.

The world up there is full of surprises.

I also like how other people automatically look up quizzically to see what this crazy person is looking at or taking a picture of.

(Okay. With the Blackbird, Fly, I'm actually looking straight. But the perspective is still up.)